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stephanie anderson ladd

Wish I May, Wish I Might

"Happy Girl" beach house shrine

…Have this wish I wish tonight.

My book club group of fab femmes from Carrboro got together and made shrines after reading The Wishing Year, sub-titled “A House, A Man, My Soul,” a memoir by Noelle Oxenhandler. If you haven’t read it, it’s a great read and tres inspirant, even as the author grapples with her fears and skepticism. I have been making goddess shrines, but taking a page, literally, from Oxenhandler’s book, I thought it was time to put it out there, a concept she learns from the maven of wishing, the artist,  Carole Watanabe, who practices and extols the virtues of living life as an art form. She believes that if there’s something you want to manifest, you make a shrine to it, or of it, and believe.

While there are many lofty things I wish for, such as world peace, healing of our selves and our planet, and the greater empowerment of women worldwide (for we are the mother-healers), I felt the need to make a shrine to manifest something tangible, something for me (and my family) to enjoy… a beach house. My whimsical beach house has wings so it can fly anywhere in the world, meaning I’m not that picky about which beach at the moment. It could be North Carolina, New York, Hawaii, the south of France–It could be a one-story cottage or a 2-story villa–I’m open! There is a portion of a map of France as well as lots of money collaged as part of the horizon behind it. For me having more money means freedom to travel and to live in an idyllic spot of my choosing. I’ve lived in the mountains of California, which was wonderful, and now I’ll take the beach, thank you. It says “Happy Girl” right on the roof top and that is what I’ll name it when it becomes mine. And you’re welcome to come visit.

Along the same lines, I took part in a paper doll swap over at True North Arts, where we created guardian or healing art dolls. I chose to make Stella Maris, Star of the Sea, which is just another name for one of my favorite goddesses–the West African creator goddess, Yemaya. Ever since my husband, Rob, brought me back a handmade Yemaya doll (see Mother’s Day blog below) from New Orleans some years ago, I have been taken by her mother-creator powers. She is a moon goddess of dreams and secrets, childbirth, and the collective unconscious. She is known as Mama Watta in Africa, where it is believed that all of the oceans, seas, lakes and rivers were formed when the waters from her womb broke and spilled out across the earth. She is a fitting goddess for this time of year, as she is celebrated on the eve of the summer solstice (June 21st), when offerings are made of flowers, blessings, and messages in bottles asking her to grant wishes and fulfill dreams, and then cast into the sea.

Stella Maris or Yemaya

The Stella Maris guardian doll I made has felted hair woven with tiny sea shells, wings that say “desire,” a girdle made of shells, her head and torso from a National geographic photo of a sunken ship’s figurehead found at the bottom of the sea, blue acetate, foil and textured papers, and mermaid paper doll form from The Enchanted Gallery (yes, you too, can get free paper doll forms to play with there). On her back it says, “Dreams really do come true.” If you do create a guardian doll, please post a comment here with a link so we can share our creations.

Kathryn Antyr at True North Arts will be offering a paper doll e-book of guardian art dolls made by those of us who took part in the swap.

And so I ask you, what do you wish for? Be bold, be brazen, be unapologetic, be daring, even selfish in your dreams and wishes. It’s okay. I am embracing the idea that the universe is abundant and expansive and that there is more than enough for everyone.

Dream big.


About The Author

Stephanie
I am in a stage of new beginnings, of starting over on the other side of the continent from California, where I spent 38 years of my life. The first year in North Carolina was a bit of a shock to my system. Not so much culture shock but the shock of transplanting myself and starting over as a therapist, artist, and wild woman. I had to figure how I was going to do it differently than I had been doing it. Because I knew I needed to change the way I worked outwardly to match the way I was feeling and moving inwardly and make it more playful, and at the same time, deep and meaningful. I knew I wanted to work with women primarily, to help them find their way on the heroine's journey to wholeness. I knew I wanted to bring more creative expression to my work because that was what was working for me--a way to bypass all the analytical thinking, perfectionism, and psychological paradigms largely created by men, and find more more intuitive ways of Being, Creating and Flowing with Life, in keeping with the Divine Feminine. I like working with the triple goddess: maiden, mother and crone, which describes the three stages of life as well as inner states of being--the innocent/adventurer; the nurturer and active doer; and the wise being who has the advantage of overview and doesn't care as much what others think of her as long as she is being true to herself. The triple goddess is found in most all cultures and traditions and helps us move out of dualistic thinking patterns and find our way to a more integrated and balanced way of life. As I forge a new path, I want to connect with women all over the world, to help women own their power, and to both explore and offer tools for self-discovery and self-care. Creating my interactive e-book, "In the Lap of the Goddess: Connecting With the Divine Feminine," is my first creative step towards sharing with women the knowledge and wisdom we all hold within us, reflected in the goddess throughout history, across time, and in every corner of the world.

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One Response to “Wish I May, Wish I Might”

  1. Ginette says:

    Stephanie, I love both your shrine and your doll! It would be so awesome to see both and touch them. Pictures are great but they don’t do justice to such intricate wonders.

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